NSV - In preparation for my interview last Friday, I went to Talbot's to find a nice jacket to wear. I ended up finding a great jacket that not only could I button but looked half decent in! And it wasn't in the women's section! I have big boobs so I bought a 16. Then I saw some beautiful pants - the most gorgeous, soft, buttery linen pants. I tried on 16's and they were to big! Please no one tell me that Talbot's runs big - I want to enjoy the fact that I purchased 14's and they fit! I then found another pair of the most beautiful, well made, soft, summery pants that remind me of being on vacation in St Tropez (not that I've ever been there but a girl can dream...). Even though I don't have a job, I bought them anyway!
Thank you to everyone who gave me such great advice regarding my boss. He has already written me one of the best reference letters on Linked In (hey are any of you all out there on Linked In? We should link up!). Lyla - I don't have concerns of retaliation, so that is truly a good thing. Also - like you said - one of my friends said - hey - maybe you can get your retirement paid for! Ha! Its not that kind of situation, really, but you're right - he's lucky as I could be a real b*&^ and file a lawsuit. Christine - I think you are spot on about making sure I don't tell many people. I only told my best friends and I agree that stuff will get around SO FAST! I'm definitely keeping it to myself! And Annie, I think you're right, he's probably more embarrassed than I am AND SHOULD BE! Linda, Read, Jacquie, and Beth Ann - I'm going with what you all said - try to maintain professionalism, chalk it up to his having too much to drink and move on. We even had plans to run a half marathon together - he's been giving me advice on running - not so sure I'll do that now - but we'll see! Did you all see what Barbara commented? I'd never heard it put this way but its so TRUE! She said "There are more snakes in the garden than butterflies!" I LOVE that! I'm stealing your line Barbara!
But thanks you guys for all the great words of advice and your thoughts. Helps me to know I'm not crazy! Can I say one thing that I feel guilty admitting and would NEVER tell anyone? I'm kinda flattered. I know that's totally gross - but to even be 'considered' attractive feels good. I'm not used to getting a lot of attention from the opposite sex and while its sick and twisted - I have to admit as I thought about it later I thought that I'm amazed that I would even be thought of in that way. Does that make sense? I sure hope it does and I don't sound desperate or immoral.
I ran again today - 10 min walk, 20 min run, 10 min walk, 10 min run, 4 min walk, 10 min run. That equals 4 miles on the boardwalk. My older sister (the runner, athletic, never had weight issues) went with me and it felt good to keep the pace with her. She runs EVERYDAY and has since we were teenagers.
I want to talk more about how some strange emotions I'm feeling - about feeling a little lost, a little inspired, a little demotivated, and feel the need to distance myself from my husband. It feels scary and uncomfortable. While I'm not a particularly emotional person - whatever that means - I've been feeling very inflective, a little mid-life crisis-ish perhaps? I have these feeling about is this the life I really want that I have right now? I'm turning 42 next week and is this the life that I dreamed of? Have I done all the things I wanted to and is now the time for me to make those changes and become the person I always wanted? As you all lost the weight and it started to show - did you go through this? Did it affect your personal relationships? How did you handle it and how did you end up on the other side of it? Just a lot of thoughts going through my head and my heart that I need to sort out and want to share here.....
Have a great Sunday everyone!!!!