I skipped working out this weekend, and did work out with the personal trainer last night and ran/walked 30mins today on the treadmill, then 20 mins on the elliptical. My knee was bothering me so much, I tried the elliptical - and I was able to keep my heart rate up (and sweat) without the impact. I may switch to elliptical for 30-40 mins and try to run/walk for 30. So I'm glad I got that out the way so I can feel like I'm back on the wagon.
I can't wait to get these stupid stitches out of my neck and side. When I sweat, it feel gross, and I can't look down b/c the stitches stop me. Anyway, they're coming out on Monday. yay!
So I didn't post for a few days b/c I got really discouraged. I ate Chinese food Sun night (I really have no restriction anymore) and weighed myself Monday and it said 227! I gained 4lbs overnight? Did the sodium really do that? Next day, 224.5 which is still high for me. This totally sucks! Why have I been limiting my calories and working out for the last 4 weeks again??!!
Today I weighed in at 223 again. Thank goodness. Its SO WEIRD how you KNOW you shouldn't let that stupid scale affect you - intellectually I can do that. But EMOTIONALLY to work so hard and still not see any progress, now that's a different story.
So on Sunday, Mr. Cupcakes and I took the Entrepreneur and BusyBee to the local water park. I hated how I felt I looked, I kept myself mostly under wraps even though its was a THOUSAND FREAKIN degrees! I need be more like Amy (Sunkist&Cheese Amy) and not let that stuff keep me from living life. I'm a lot older than she is, but that chick has it figured out at a young age! Here's a pic of BusyBee enjoying the sunshine!
You know I wonder what my husband thought of me when he saw me in the pools with my daughter. From a distance he could see me practically naked along with a lot of other practically naked women. There were all kinds of other women there, of course, some looked awesome, some more overweight than I. I wonder where I stand in his eyes on that spectrum. I know he will never tell me - but I still wonder what he really sees. I know he doesn't mind my weight, he's told me so, and I know that he is very attracted to me, no problems there. I'm also a pretty secure person - I still wonder......he probably only saw my boobs and nothing else. Aren't all men like that anyway? Women sure aren't - Mr. Cupcakes is 'normal' - and he always looks good to me compared and not compared. We women have such a longer personal list of physical characteristics, don't we? For them its just boobs or butt or both. *sigh* Thank God 'cuz I've got the boobs and the butt - I love my simple man!