With my stress level up - honestly its so strange how this band has become my stress barometer - my restriction is somewhat back. I'm eating well, making the right choices, but I need to exercise more. I need to get the scale going and its just not!
I must tell you that I've learned over time that when I'm stressed, I don't feel it mentally most of the time. In fact, I'd gone to the doctor 2 years ago because I was feeling this chest pressure and chest pains that would come and go. I honestly thought I may be having heart attack symptoms and was very worried about my cholesterol. I've always had high cholesterol - since I started getting tested at 18. I have familial hyperlipidemia - which is just hereditary high cholesterol. No matter what I eat, my cholesterol will always be high. Being overweight didn't help matters. So I had a stress test and learned that my heart was perfectly normal. I went on cholesterol medicine about the same time so I just couldn't understand what this chest pressure was. The doctor suggested anxiety - which just didn't make sense to me. I didn't 'feel' stressed or anxious about anything. I wasn't worried or nervous, in fact I was pretty happy overall.
Well, the more I paid attention, the more I realized that when I was around people that frustrated me, I would sometimes feel that chest pressure. Or when I had a tough deadline approaching or when I had to do a presentation, something really big, I would begin to feel it. Mentally, I knew things would be fine (or maybe I was just rationalizing like I always do) but I had this physical manifestation of something I honestly didn't realize I was 'stressing' about. I began exercising which helped to alleviate that and I've not felt that same chest pressure in a very long time.
I'm telling you all this to share with you that now this band does that same thing. I noticed this past weekend, that I was thinking about all the events of last week and I wanted to eat and 'feel' better by eating some comfort food. Only problem is, I couldn't eat. My band was too tight! It occurred to me that I was turning to food for stress relief and not being able to eat made me feel of all things....I felt lonely. Mentally, I was actually having a great weekend, but clearly I'm processing in the background the big decisions I need to make, hense some physical stress. That physical stress is now a tight band. I wanted warm things, mashed potatos, soup, gravy, pasta with cheese, all kinds of comfort foods. Not being able to eat them made me realize that I didn't even recognize the pattern of my wanting comfort foods in order to soothe myself. This band kept me from falling back into old patterns! I still find myself wanting to eat comfort foods but I'm trying to find new ways to deal with my stresses. This is another reason why I need to kick in and get to exercising again - for the stress relief! The band is still tight, I actually felt sick the other night when Mr. Coconuts and I went out to dinner. I felt a little disappointed that I couldn't eat more. I wanted to fill myself with warm, good food. Why? Why couldn't I just enjoy the company, eat only a little bit, and be happy with that? Turns out, I was very content with only eating a little bit. The environment, the company, the time spent is just as good eating a big meal as the small meal my band was allowing me. Plus I have 2 days worth of AWESOME leftovers for lunch. I guess it was just such a big deal for me to be satisfied with less. So the surprise of being tight - even sick almost - made me realize I needed to pay attention to my body and if this band is tight - I'm stressing about something and I need to take even better care of myself, cut myself some slack, and do something to de-stress! This band really is a great thing!