The scale is moving down, thank goodness, from the 5lbs I gained Easter week. I'm down to 206 this morning - which is only 2lbs away from the 204 I was at 2 weeks ago. I've been eating less (and avoiding chocolate) and decided to take it easy on myself working out. I'm walking and doing shorting jogging stints - only because I was getting a really sore lower back from pushing myself to run. I am enjoying the exercising more and at least I'm doing something! I want to have a more positive experience from exercise - not just push myself hard and then be sore all day and night. I'm also working hard to get 4 bottles of water in.
I have a big work function in Washington DC the first week in May. I really wanted to be below 200 at the point and wear some of my really nice suits since this is a very high brow event that include award dinners and workshops during the day. I plan to go up a day early with my great friends that are also my co-workers and shop at Tyson's corner and Potomic Mills. I really wanted to be in the 190's by now and wear my very nice expensive outfits that I still don't fit into. I also know that its 2 weeks away and I'm not going to put that pressure on myself.
Are deadlines good? Are they goals or are they unnecessary pressure? Goals with time lines are good in real life - but are they really good when it comes to weight loss? I'm not sure.
I've really put a lot of pressure on myself and felt a lot of resentment because of weight goals. For example, the one year mark of having the band. I know its great for some - but for others like me, I just felt disappointed that I wasn't further along and progressing as well as I'd hoped. Based off all I had read, it seemed like I understood that after 1 year - you've pretty much lost all that you're going to. I even read studies in medical journals that asserted this. I'm learning, however, from reading your blogs and your journeys - that this isn't the case! So, I'm going to go through my own journey - at my own pace. And I'm going to try to stop imagining myself at a certain weight in a certain month at a specific event! I'm going to appreciate where I am !