I completely understand the logic that they want someone who isn't going to just jump ship once a new offer comes along. But I do feel they at least should have interviewed me and asked me my position and intentions regarding that. They could have decided if I was flat out lying or sincerely interested in taking a step back, a pay cut, and why that actually is what I want in my life now as part of my quest to find real balance between work and home. I am disappointed but see that it appears my fate is decided and my path will take me to severance which is also ok. Both options have great benefits and both have drawbacks. Life is just taking me down this path and I need to release fighting to control things I can't necessarily control. I guess I'm just used to being the one making the decisions. Financially, we will be fine. I think I'm just grieving the benefits that go along with being employed (6 weeks vac, discounted services, $ to put in savings, frivolous shopping)
My job will end at the end of May. Its a good time of year (its not Nov or Jan!) and I will spend the summer not working for the first time in my life. I'm looking forward to it since we have a nice in ground pool that the kids and I will play in all summer. I plan to take them to the beach, to parks, and have them help me maintain a nice vegetable garden! Ha! We'll see if they really help with the last one!
I'm finding that I want to eat junk food to comfort myself. I've eaten chips today and then stopped myself. I also ate some sesame crackers and cheese which were sooo gooood! :) I'm planning a healthy lunch and some Lemon Chicken and Spinach Soup with Orzo for dinner.
Now I just have to get on that treadmill and knock out 30 mins and I'll be good for today. Its too cold and windy to walk on the boardwalk today - so its going to have to be the treadmill!